Funnily enough, I now sort of blog for a living. I could say that’s why my public, personal blog hasn’t been updated. But it’s more that the reality of having a public blog hit me a few months ago. It’s not like I post all my musics, lofty dreams I’m secretly scared to admit, voice recordings I want to fashion into podcasts, or wish lists for material and immaterial desires. But I want to.
As this blog is meant to act as my (very public) diary, I had the urge a few days ago to share how looking back at these photos made me feel.
Sometimes it actually feels good to cave. When you spend so much time telling yourself that you’re this productive & capable dynamite of a person and you just want to always say the right things, do the right things and be the right person, you’re setting yourself up for failure at the first sign of distress. It might not happen all at once, it could be a slow burn, but you will break down. That’s why you have to recognize your weaknesses.